I don't want to be where I am in my life in 12 months time. I have spent quite a few of my 32 years not striving for anything...just being, going with the flow.
I am feeling determined for some change.
There are five steps that I am going to take. I will list them soon.
Right now I have to pick up my crumpled car from the mechanics.
Wednesday, 23 January 2008
Friday, 4 January 2008
Whinger
It is 37 degrees, I am hot, bored and slightly annoyed.
I have been trying to learn some chords for my new guitar. I am finding it extremely hard. My fingers don't bend the way that the pictures show me how to do it and holding down the strings hurts like a mother after a while. I am feeling frustrated by not being muscially gifted and am trying to get over the feeling that this whole guitar rock chick business is beyond me.
I will blame the heat for my bad attitude...
GB is sleeping. Since he has been on holidays we have reverted back to weekends of old
where our waking hours only seem to be in sync for about 4 to 6 hours. I am busy pottering around or cleaning and he sleeps. Then while I am sleeping he sits at his computer for hours on end.
I think I am feeling daunted by all the new tasks I have set my self for the begining of this year. I want to learn to play the guitar and I also bought a sewing machine. The sewing machine came about because I dislike the fashion of today. I thought that making my own clothes was the best solution to this. Hehehe I can't even sew in a straight line let alone follow a complicated pattern. All this is on top of a general feeling of needing something to change. I cut my hair short for a change.....it didn't seem to ease the feeling all that much. Silly me thinking something as shallow and meaningless as a haircut could cut through the apathy and discontent.
HA! Do I detect some self pity there?
The lottery tickets that we got for Christmas gave us nada. I was hoping that a move to Europe with all the money to buy my Italian Villa and a beefy American muscle car was going to be just around the corner :)
Bugger it - I am going shopping!
I have been trying to learn some chords for my new guitar. I am finding it extremely hard. My fingers don't bend the way that the pictures show me how to do it and holding down the strings hurts like a mother after a while. I am feeling frustrated by not being muscially gifted and am trying to get over the feeling that this whole guitar rock chick business is beyond me.
I will blame the heat for my bad attitude...
GB is sleeping. Since he has been on holidays we have reverted back to weekends of old
where our waking hours only seem to be in sync for about 4 to 6 hours. I am busy pottering around or cleaning and he sleeps. Then while I am sleeping he sits at his computer for hours on end.
I think I am feeling daunted by all the new tasks I have set my self for the begining of this year. I want to learn to play the guitar and I also bought a sewing machine. The sewing machine came about because I dislike the fashion of today. I thought that making my own clothes was the best solution to this. Hehehe I can't even sew in a straight line let alone follow a complicated pattern. All this is on top of a general feeling of needing something to change. I cut my hair short for a change.....it didn't seem to ease the feeling all that much. Silly me thinking something as shallow and meaningless as a haircut could cut through the apathy and discontent.
HA! Do I detect some self pity there?
The lottery tickets that we got for Christmas gave us nada. I was hoping that a move to Europe with all the money to buy my Italian Villa and a beefy American muscle car was going to be just around the corner :)
Bugger it - I am going shopping!
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